tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31225167523219071932024-03-05T00:00:22.843-08:00Learning to Love FearlesslyHere's a glimspe into my heart and what Jesus is doing on the inside. Just wanting to be the clay as He molds and makes me into His masterpiece. For sure I'm underconstruction.Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-58905439191256142172016-01-10T19:25:00.001-08:002016-01-10T19:25:03.884-08:00Trusting in the pain<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Tomorrow Gabrielle will turn 17. This evening brings back a lot of memories. The night before she was born, John and I stayed up late into the night talking about what our lives would be like after our daughter was born, our dream was about to happen. After a long, hard and painful pregnancy of constant contractions and over 13 weeks of bed rest it was all about to come to an end as we welcomed our daughter into the world and we would just go back to our normal living with our baby, or at least that's what we thought. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /> I wont go into the actual events of the day of her birth but upon her arrival at 10:43pm she was blue, limp like a rag doll, her legs just floped over her head, she wasn't making a sound, the only life in her was a heartbeat, apgar score of 1. My doctor tired to comfort me with her words, "She is gonna be alright."</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /> As a swarm of nurses were called down from what we would later learn as the NICU, her words brought no comfort, I knew in my heart something was tradgically wrong. She was rushed out of the doctors arms into a slew of nurses. They "worked" on her. I could hear and see the frantic pace with which they tried to get her to breath. And then, even today as clear and comforting as it was back then, the LORD GOD spoke. He so clearly and tenderly spoke into the depths of my heart........</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />His word.........<br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">His soothing word.......<br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">His balm......<br /> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">His word that brings a peace that surpasses all understanding.......<br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"Will you trust her with Me?"<br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Without hesitation my heart leaped back, "Yes LORD, how could I not. I have already surrendered my entire life into Your hands."<br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> That was it.<br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> I had, we had no idea the road we were suddenly jerked onto nor where it would take us. Even today, in the face of fear and the unknown, all the sacrifice, all the pain, all the joy, those words -- "Will you trust her with Me?" continues to ring true, they continue to bring His comfort, His peace into the present. I couldn't walk this road yesterday, today or tommorrow without His grip on our lives.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /> Most of the time my flesh wants to scream -- <br /> This is not fair, This doesn't make sense, I don't want to walk this road anymore, I don't want to move one. more. step. forward. <br /> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I think of His word to me on that very hard January night in the delivery room, "Will you trust her with Me?" and again I respond just as I did that night, "Yes LORD, I trust You." And in the place of trust comes rest, not rest <i>from</i> the storm but rest <i>IN</i> the storm. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /> As we do have to move forward because that's how time works, I will continue to hold on to His spoken and written words, to me, to my daughter, to my family. I do not know what the future holds, He does. I know what the doctors say and I know what my God, Creator of heaven and earth, Creator of Gabrielle, my Creator and what His word says.........</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /> "I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Matthew 28:20</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /> "the eyes of the LORD your God are continually on it from the beginning of </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> the year to its end." Deuteronomy 11:12</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> "Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> were none of them." Psalm 139:16</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />In Him...... I will put my trust,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In Him...... I will rest.</span>Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-65417585591901076162015-11-29T10:06:00.001-08:002015-11-29T10:06:44.260-08:00The Goodness of the LORD even in the waitingThe season in the valley has been long, and still is.<br />
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As the kids and I are studing Countries and Cultures this year we are currently in Norway. <br />
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There are cities in Norway who kiss the sun good bye in Sept and wait for it's return counting 6 l o n g months. Right before the sun returns they make a day's journey climbing the mountains to welcome back the sun. It truely is a sight to behold. Imagine the joy of seeing the sun again after such a long wait. <br />
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God's word says in Psalm 27:13-14<br />
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed<br />
That I would see the goodness of the Lord<br />
In the land of the living.<br />
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Wait on the Lord;<br />
Be of good courage,<br />
And He shall strengthen your heart;<br />
Wait, I say, on the Lord!<br />
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To be honest there have been times in the last 6 years when I thought I was going to loss heart, I didn't think I could move forward another step. Knowing His word doesn't lie, I held on to what looked only like a thin strand of hope and continued to wait.<br />
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As I continue to wait.......Jesus has so tenderly and graciously blessed a little girl in my life who has suffered so much with a fountain of joy. For two weeks now she wakes from her slumber in smiles and bubbles of laughs, all. day. long. <br />
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I feel like the people of Norway who have waited and even grew weary in their waiting (even calling this season the murky time and grow hungry to see the sun as if they haven't eaten for months) but have treked up the mountain to behold the sun and are taking it all in. I'm taking this gift, this grace.. all in, even though waiting continues.<br />
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So thankful for His grace over and in my daughter today. He has strengthen my heart and I'm beholding these moments of His goodness in this land of the living, knowing that one day the mortal will be further clothed with immortality and sight will be given to faith. <br />
The great I AM is in our midst. <br />
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<br />Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-46112356387510761612015-07-18T10:26:00.000-07:002015-07-18T10:26:07.230-07:00When suffering is long<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I can't tell you what it's like to care for your daughter 24/7 for sixteen plus years - day in and day out of suffering.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's gut wrenching, painful.....</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You try to run,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> hide, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> turn your head, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> pretend it isn't.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You try to pray it all away........</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> and yet God doesn't answer in the way you want.......</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> you so desperately desire. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So you have two choices, two options.....</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">1. To run, run away</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> turn your face away from God, just like we were when we were born into this world....</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> faces away and clutched fists</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Or</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">2. You face the pain head on into the arms of a loving God who does redeem, saves and heals.............</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But not always to our liking - which forces you to press in even more because it feels as if your very breath will be taken away in the pain and yet........</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> He faithfully , Jesus faithfully gives you the next breath and the next breath and the next. In the taking of breathes you realize in this hard and broken world that even your very breath is a gift........</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> a gift from Him, the One who creates.....and restores. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You realize that on the day when all your days are done, are over, and you take your very last breath, once again He faithfully, Jesus faithfully will bring you from death to life. Life in His very presence, into everlasting joy, where every tear is wiped away and everything is restored. Peace and rest are finally realized.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's a breaking of our will to walk this road. A "not my will, but Yours, be done." (Luke 23:42)</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's His kindness, His mercy, His grace that makes all this possible. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">He is good.....even in pain and suffering.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">He is good, He restores, He heals even though sometimes it doesn't look the way we want it to look and the road is long.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">His mercy leads to repentance </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Which leads to life </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> new life. </span>Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-28755915288373710152014-04-10T09:38:00.001-07:002014-04-10T09:38:24.946-07:00Peace, be still.......<span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">I am so thankful for all of the promises God has in His word. promises that you can stand on. really really stand on. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Ps. 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a ver</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">y present help in trouble. and because He is our refuge, strength, a very present help in trouble we can "be still and know that He is God." Ps. 46:10<br />"Who is mighty like You, O LORD, Your faithfulness also surrounds You. You rule the raging of the sea; When its waves rise, You still them." Psalm 89:8-9<br /><br />In Ps. 23 His word tell us that He prepares a table before us in the presence of our enemies. Not in the absence of our enemies. in Ps 46:1 it's in trouble that He is our very present help. A help in the here and now. in the middle of the storm.<br /><br />In Mark 4:35-41, Matt. 8:23-27 and Luke 8:22-25 Jesus taught us how to sleep in the middle of the storm. not to sleep in the absence of storms but right in the middle. He first told His disciples that they were going to the other side. Now remember this is God, the one who controls everything so if He says they were going to the other side they were going to the other side and no storm would stop them. as they launched out Jesus feel asleep. a huge storm came up to the point His disciple were so afraid they were going to perish. People, we will have storms in our lives where we feel like we are going to perish and we will even have the same questions that His disciples had -<br />"Teacher, do You not care that we are perishing?" Mark 4:38.<br />But don't just call Jesus teacher.<br />Know who He is!!! He is the "Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world." John 1:29 Jesus, because He is God, calmed the waves by saying, "Peace, be still!" The storm was gone. but He said to His disciples, "Why are you so fearful?" Mark 4:40. Jesus doesn't want us to be afraid in the storms of life. He wants us to know that He is in control of them all no matter how long they last or how they end. He wants our whole trust to be put in Him so that He can lead us around, through or completely quiet the storm.<br />It's in His word that will bring peace to our hearts in middle of the storms.<br /><br />And when we have fulfilled the number of our days, (I Chron 17:13) He has promises for that as well!!! In your storm may you hear the Master of the storm speak to your heart today, "Peace, be still" and may you be able to rest assured knowing that He is fully in control and if you will submit yourself under His mighty hand (I Peter 5:6) He will direct your steps. (Prov. 3:5-6)</span><br />
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Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-66059375414173231632014-02-02T23:34:00.000-08:002014-02-02T23:34:53.843-08:00A Forever, Perfect, Unchangeable CovenantLife is not about me..................<br />
Life is not about you.................<br />
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It's not your story, it's not my story. It's His Story. <br />
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It's about God the Father and His covenant with His Son Jesus Christ who is God Himself.<br />
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All covenants between God of all creation and man have been broken. Not because of God - He is perfect and has always upheld His end of the agreement. It's because of man - we are not perfect and we will always mess up and be covenant breakers. We have all sinned and have missed the mark. Rom 3:23<br />
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The first covenant which came through the law was nothing more than to show us <br />
our sin......<br />
our brokenness......<br />
our need for redemption.......<br />
our need for a Savior..........<br />
because through the law we were not made righteous. We were/are only found guilty, condemned.<br />
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The covenant between God the Father and God the Son is a blood covenant. Blood was shed to seal it.<br />
Jesus lives forever and it's a forever, unchangeable covenant.<br />
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We need a revelation that we are only grafted into this covenant by faith ~ belief in what Jesus Christ did on the cross because of an agreement between Him and His Father to redeem humans.<br />
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So the first covenant through the law is our teacher, our tutor to show us that we are law-breakers. We are judged guilty and the sentence is death.<br />
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OH, BUT, praise God that He did not leave us there. He didn't leave us to be condemned, to be judged guilty, to be put to death.<br />
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What man could not do, God did through His Son. <br />
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Jesus, completely perfect, eternal and God Himself, shed His blood, entered the Holiest (Heb 10:19-23) once and for all ~ that's why the veil was torn from top to bottom. Luke 23:45, Matt 27:51 ~ there is no more separation between God and man - the symbol of separation - the veil - was ripped in half making way for man to be with God. By faith, we are justified, forgiven, set free from sin and the judgement of sin which is death.<br />
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We entered into the covenant by faith. It's not a covenant between us and God anymore. It's between God the Father and God the Son.<br />
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Are we getting it? It has nothing to do with us - it never has, never will.<br />
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It's NOT about<br />
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what we do.............<br />
what we don't do..............<br />
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It's NOT how nice we are, or how good we are, or how hard we try - none of that will ever measure up. We have all sinned. We all continue to turn our faces from the LORD God. We can't do it, nor will we ever be able to live up to our end of the covenant.<br />
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That's why we are grafted in by faith in what Jesus has done into this covenant between God and His Son. Jesus Lives and is making intercession for you, for me and is able to save to the uttermost those who come to God through Jesus. Heb 7:25<br />
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It's through the covenant between God the Father and God the Son.<br />
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It's NOT a covenant with us and praise God for that because we would do what we do best - break the covenant - fall short once again.<br />
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Do you see? The covenant is between God the Father and God the Son - PERIOD.<br />
We don't add to it, we aren't even in the equation. There is no algebra equation here, no a, b or c.<br />
It's only God + Jesus = Salvation = Redemption<br />
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We are grafted in by God through our belief and faith in what Jesus did on the cross and that is all by faith.<br />
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I am so overcome and overwhelmed by the torn veil.<br />
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<br />Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-12753296016345746342013-04-19T16:24:00.000-07:002013-04-19T16:24:39.156-07:00He is in the StormHello friend.................<br />
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Again, we are in a storm. It seems like they come ~ wave after wave...............<br />
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Our sweet Gabrielle is in the PICU. It's hard to maintain life in the hospital. Everything becomes unglued, I become unglued. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair. II Cor 4:8 No matter our circumstances ~ YHWH remains, He remains in control. He is in control. He holds this too, He holds my daughter, He holds my family, He holds me.<br />
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I grow weary...........<br />
exhausted, yet pursing. Judges 8:4<br />
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So thankful for His word. His word anchors my soul to an unshakable ROCK in the shakeable storm. <br />
So thankful that the Word became flesh and dwelt among us. John 1:14<br />
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He is here my friend. He is here, in our circumstances. He is in your circumstances too. Do you see Him? Are you able to recognize Him? Even if you can't see Him, He's here. Your very breath is evident of Him in your life.<br />
"without Me you can do nothing." Jesus John 15:5<br />
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As I wrestled this morning through thick tears with fears unimaginable for any mom to bear, the LORD Himself reach down and lifted me up out of the miry clay and placed my feet on His stable ground, His rock and established my steps. Psalm 40:2<br />
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I heard Him<br />
a delicate whispering voice (1 Kings 19:12)<br />
He spoke so tenderly, so precious<br />
"I <br />
have made <br />
everything<br />
beautiful<br />
in its time."<br />
Ecc. 3:11<br />
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What really caught my attention in this verse is the "have made". He has already done it. Everything beautiful. Wow. Here, in my daughter's struggle, in her pain, in my fear ~ beauty. Something that He has done. Even though we don't see the completion yet. We struggle with the see part don't we. We want to have all our ducks in a row, everything in order, everything in it's place. I have been so challenged to know His peace in all circumstances. To take ahold of His peace in the here and now, in the mess. It's only a mess to us, not to Him. He sees, He knows.<br />
<br />Everything. His word says everything ~ nothing is too far from His redemption, it's all covered. "Is My hand shortened at all that it cannot redeem? Or have I no power to deliver?" Isaiah 50:2 Do you hear? Nothing in your life, nothing in my life is beyond His reach. He is the Creator and He sees all and knows all and He is working it all into His plan. Romans 8:28. <br />
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Redemption is His Story and He makes it our story. <br />
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I don't understand how He takes all the evil in the world and uses it for His glory and His purposes, but He does. He is YHWH, God and He is good.<br />
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Beautiful...........<br />
what a precious promise for you, for me, for all who will put their trust in Him.<br />
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In its time............<br />
He has a purpose, season for everything. Have you been able to thank Him for His seasons in your life. As He whispered these verses to me I was able to. Because of His mercy, once again I was able to exchange fear for His peace. He took my tears, He is holding them as He holds me. My daughter belongs to Him ~ from the beginning to the end. <br />
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Great comfort is found in His word........<br />
I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice. Ecc 3:12 I am thankful to YHWH, He changed my tears today into rejoicing in Him. In His perfect plan because He has already made it all beautiful in its time. I can rejoice as I wait patiently for the completion of His work, His beautiful work. <br />
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"I know that whatever God does,<br />
It shall be forever.<br />
Nothing can be added to it.<br />
And nothing taken from it.<br />
God does it, that men should fear before Him." Ecc 3:14<br />
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Once again in the storm, my Creator, took me to the eye of the storm, covered me and restored rest to my soul. He longs to do the same for you right in your storm. "Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the LORD, which He will accomplish for you today." Exodus 14:13 "The LORD will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace!!" Exodus 14:14<br />
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Praying for you friend...............<br />
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Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-38779412685029170022013-04-06T16:58:00.000-07:002013-04-06T17:34:22.426-07:00Living on the Edge<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My Gabrielle loves to live on the edge. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> She loves to show that her Creator YHWH does the impossible. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"For with God nothing will be impossible." Luke 1:37 </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> She has become as a wonder (miracle) to many while she declares that He is her strong refuge (a hope, a shelter from the storm) and her mouth is filled with His praise and with His glory all the day. Psalm 71:7-8.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The medical community says any body temperature under 95 F is life threatening and needs medical supervision in warming the body back up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Gabrielle loves to say, "Take my temperature and you will see that I am a living, breathing miracle to testify that Jesus lives and He upholds me and NOTHING is impossible with Him."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Most of this year her temperature has read right around 91.9 F. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">She is upheld and sustained by Him. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"All things were created through Him and for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist." Colossians 1:16-17 My precious daughter was created through Him and she was created <i>for </i>Him. I can sit and linger here. Her life brings Him glory and honor because He created her. It's not about what she does, or what she doesn't do. Just the same for me, for you. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Having a child like Gabrielle is like walking a tight rope most of the time. You have to have your focus set like a flint on the prize ~ Jesus Christ. There are daily, daily struggles turning into months and years that are constantly there trying to knock you off the rope. You learn to daily pick up your cross and move forward with your eyes and hope set on the ROCK, the anchor of your soul. Being reminded that I don't support the root, but the root supports me. Romans 11:18 And finding great peace here.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I read Jesus words in John 15:5, "for without Me you can do nothing." and I realize this includes breathing. Me breathing and my precious child breathing. I realize that even my breath, Gabrielle's breath is a gift from the LORD God who created the heaven and earth and created this fragile child. Fragile in the eyes of the world that is. I'm not so convince the LORD God would "label" her as fragile or any of these special children. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So, if I can't even breath on my own, no wonder I struggle to live this life on my own. Often people say to me, "Jodi, I don't know how you do it." Let me testify that I don't "do it." Jesus does it. He does it through me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> the grace.................</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> just like He supplies the breath..............</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> And yes it is through a lot of tears </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> but it's glorious</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> when you find Him "in the thick cloud." Exodus 19:3 </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And yes, HE is here, in the thick cloud of suffering, of trials ~ in yours and in mine. "Oh taste and see that The LORD God is good." Psalm 34:8 and His mercy endures from everlasting to everlasting. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Me ~ Learning to love fearlessly again because of my precious daughter who shouts from the mountain tops, "My God, YHWH, reigns and He is good and He still does the impossible today!" You will have to hear her with your heart not your ears.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Gabrielle, our precious daughter is 14 year old who suffered a severe brain injury at birth. She is still total care in all areas of life. She is a living, breathing testimony to the greatness of the LORD God we serve. She is a teacher. If you will listen to her with your heart, you will learn much. </span><br />
<br />Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-15341281750395398472012-06-18T06:22:00.000-07:002012-06-18T06:22:48.264-07:00Hidden and TransformedA transformed life is a life that has been formed by the Hands of God.<br />
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It is a life that has surrendered to the Hands of the LORD. And has rested and waited in those Hands in a place of trust while He has done and is doing the work and not caring where the Hands place that finished work because she has found great comfort being hidden in the Hands of her LORD.<br />
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The One who is forming and shaping her into His image, what He sees fit for His daughter, not what she see's fit anymore. She has come to a place where her comfort is in His Hands ~ no longer wanting to direct her life or shape her life anymore. She longs for His masterpiece in her life because she knows that He is the Lover of her soul. <br />
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Rest my daughter, Rest in these Hands of Mine.<br />
Your Beloved who longs for you.<br />
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"Woe to him who strives with his Maker!"...Shall the clay say to him who forms it, 'What are you making?'<br />
Isaiah 45:9<br />
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He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High<br />
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.<br />
Psalm 91:1<br />
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For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son.<br />
Romans 8:29<br />
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Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God.<br />
Romans 12:2Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-88088667987053659602012-06-08T07:09:00.000-07:002012-06-08T21:04:49.193-07:00The Great Exchange<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Then He said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. Take this cup away from Me;</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will." Mark 14:36</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">For my sake and for yours, I am so thankful that Jesus not only said to His Father, "not what I will, but what You will." He walked out His Father's will. Why did it have to be this way? I don't understand all of that. But in trusting and believing He has made me into a new creation. He has done in my life what I couldn't do for myself.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I have several of those - Take this cup away from me LORD.......................</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So this Lenten Season He has so graciously spoke to my heart about those things. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">First I bought a large white mug, a red paint pen and wrote on the mug, </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> "Take This Cup</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> Not my will, but Yours be done." Luke 22:42 </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Then I cut up little strips of paper and put them with a pen in another mug next to the "Take This Cup". </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">As I have gone to Him I have written, most times, the same thing over and over on the paper and placed them in the cup. It's been a visual, a place of trading if you will, from my hands into His hands. It's been a place where the holding on to, worrying, has being exchanged for His grace, His peace, His view point and seeing those things from His perspective instead of mine. It's been a place of grace, a place of healing. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Not to say that those things have changed in the natural. They are still there. It's how I see them that has changed. Still being in the storm but having a different perspective in the storm. By His divine grace being able to dance in the storm. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Still sometimes wanting to cry but going back to the "Take This Cup" and rewriting the mountain down and placing it back into the cup - once again taking it from my hands and putting into His hands and again being able to dance once again. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am humbled by His grace once again being revealed in my life. Once again in awe of His work in my life, His great concern and love for me to take my life and redeem all things in it.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">He is about redeeming - My Redeemer Lives!!! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The tomb is empty - to the tomb is the cross and it's through the cross and the Blood of the Lamb that was shed that makes all things new and gives us the ability to place our lives, it all into His hands for His will to be accomplished in our lives instead of our will. I am so thankful that He so patiently teaches us this transfer throughout our lives. Our sin for His life. It is the Great Exchange all provided by because of His great love for us. </span></span>Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-33743347063324527452012-06-08T07:00:00.000-07:002012-06-08T21:06:08.306-07:00Let it rain..............I will dance in the storm.<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It's time, it's time to put on my raincoat and rainboots and dance in the storm - just like a child who goes out into the rain all decked out and dances so freely and so sweetly in the rain ~ carefree.......</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I will lift up my face to the One who has created the rain and in this storm I will praise Him. To dance the joyful dance because He has my heart. I belong to Him, He knows all, He sees all and He hears all.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">To offer to Him this storm, this trial, this suffering for His glory, for </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">isn't this what we need to do in the storms of life ~ to dance. There's a place in the storm, right in the middle, in the eye where we can rest. The eye ~ His eye ~ knowing that He sees, He's here.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">"And suddenly a great tempest arose on the sea, so that the boat was covered with waves. But He (Jesus) was asleep." Mathew 8:24</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Jesus is here. He is in the boat, in the storm with us so that we can dance. He is here. Even if it seems as if He is sleeping He is still here so that we can dance in the storm. The storm will not overtake us, He is with us. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">My dear friend, will you dance with me? Will you put on your rain gear and dance? Will you place yourself in His hands, the One who longs to take you to the eye of the storm and dance.</span>Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-9701109980682276422012-02-11T08:16:00.000-08:002012-02-11T09:33:03.916-08:00Jesus holds me together......Day 6 of my Princess of all princesses being in the PICU.<br /><br /><br />I can't hold things together, circumstances have once again screamed out of control.<br /><br /><br />As I wake this morning with feelings of how am I going to do this again, how am I going to live, my heart reminds me the only way to live is in fellowship with Christ ~ remember...<br /><br /><br />.....I may know Him<br />and the power of His resurrection<br />and the fellowship of His sufferings,<br />being conformed to His death.<br />Philippians 3:10<br /><br /><br />Oh yes, I am reminded, right here in suffering there is fellowship with my risen LORD.<br /><br /><br />I don't want to move quickly thru this season, I just long to live it with Him, step by step, breath by breath because it's here ~ in Jesus ~ I know I will be safe and therefore I can lead my children in His peace and His safety. There is no place else to be, to live.<br /><br /><br />He gently reminds me He is holding it all together, He is holding me.<br /><br />I don't have to fear how I am going to get it all done today because His Word has that covered ~<br /><br /><br />Indeed before the day was,<br />I am He.<br />Isaiah 43:13<br /><br /><br />Oh my heart do you see? before I woke up this morning to the feeling of being overwhelmed, of out of control, how will I do this again........He says ~ before your day was........I am He. He has it covered. Oh the great comfort that comes from knowing and believing that He is.......<br />Jesus covers all my needs, all my feelings.<br /><br /><br />Before all and in all and thru all ~ Jesus is....<br /><br /><br />The rest and peace that comes from knowing and believing.<br />It causes my heart to rejoice and leap about with great shouts of exuberant joy because Jesus is here ~ He hasn't left me, my princess, my family, my circumstances. He is in the very detail of them, watching and doing His very work in our circumstances and in our hearts.<br /><br /><br />O dear one, for you too, in whatever you face today, do you also see, He has you, He has it all ~ all covered. He is there before it all, before you woke up this morning to face the day, He is. He has your path covered and in Him you too are complete.<br /><br /><br />Let us rest, my friend, in His Word, in His truth for our today.<br /><br />He is here..............Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-89728408132282889072012-02-09T10:29:00.001-08:002012-03-03T21:44:18.683-08:00.... complete in Him......<div>And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist, held together. Colossians 1:17</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>.....and you are complete in Him...... Colossians 2:10</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>I can't wait to see my beloved and our other 4 children today. I have been in the walls of the hospital for days now with our Princess of all princesses. In hospital time, waiting, wondering, praying...... His grace has sustained me, His grace has been here, a place of refuge. </div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>Longing to kiss and hug the rest of my family and longing for us to be a whole family unit again ~ but gently reminded by the One who created families that my wholeness, completeness in found only in Him. </div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>Why is it that we are always striving to find our peace in our circumstances, in having some element of control of our surroundings, of control in our lives? Why does it take us so long to realize and learn that it is in our brokeness we are made whole when we surrender to Him. </div>Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-29327311902863845072012-01-19T17:03:00.000-08:002012-02-08T22:05:55.513-08:00Isn't life a journey.....the traveling as much as the destination. I long for His grace....<br /><br />His rest....<br /><br />His peace...<br /><br />to accompany my every step .<br /><br /><br />Longing for His grace and not to be tossed to and fro. To be full of Jesus so when life squeezes me, it's Him that comes out.<br /><br /><br />longing, seeking, waiting...<br /><br /><br />more of Him, less of me.<br /><br /><br /><br />Thankful for the glimpses of this desire ~ we see in part, we know in part and one day we will see face to face. oh.... what a day, what a glorious day that will be.<br /><br /><br /><br />Being a homeschooling mom of 5 and one with 24/7 needs often I feel exhaused and spent ~ as if there is nothing more to be poured out ~ LORD make me a drink offering is a prayer of my heart. Oh sometimes my flesh wishes that I wouldn't pray that prayer, but then my heart reminds me of the blessing from the LORD that children are.<br /><br /><br />His gift.<br /><br /><br />His treasure.<br /><br /><br /><br />And my heart cries out again; LORD make me a drink offering. I long to be a sweet drink to my children and husband.<br /><br /><br /><br />I am so thankful for His grace.....<br /><br /><br /><br />When I retire for the evening feeling as there is nothing left to give and how in the world will I do this again tomorrow, my heart reminds me, He reminds me....<br /><br /><br />His mercies are new every morning...........<br /><br /><br /><br />Rest, rest, and LORD do your work in me, your amazing, above what I can ask or think or imagine work. And He does................Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3122516752321907193.post-11031124441402043642010-04-25T14:53:00.000-07:002012-01-19T17:21:39.732-08:00<div> </div>Jodi Haskinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08520947006516537644noreply@blogger.com0